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Shock and Delight
07:02
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I lose myself on the floor
Your face is blurred by hot juice I need to see your eyes
We were the best, no longer are
I taste them on your lips, on your tongue, such arousal
What a shock, your necklace is running
I found another source of pleasure, my dreams
You did no longer want to – all these strange men, they could and they did
Colleagues, students, friends of friends – you took them all
Your peerless whorishness, it’s shock and delight
All while I cheer and pray for escalation
I found another source of pleasure, no dream
I use codeine, I drink I smoke, I get high, high as a kite
A neon lit urban hell – please dish out the pain
A fittingly red night on the town I say
Please strike me down, oh, am I even worth it now?
You found another source of pleasure, no dream
The tweezers shred my skin I’m - out of my mind, drunk, high-odine
A neon lit urban hell – let me find some pain
I welcome all the random violence, please
Please strike me down, oh, I am so confused now
This is not what best friends put each other through, you know
Fathers - Lock up your daughters
Boyfriends - Lock up your girlfriends
Mothers – Tie up your precious
Greek Fuck Boy
Greek Sex Toy
Greek Gameboy
Greek McCoy
Greek Bellboy
Greek Joy toy
Greek Cowboy
Greek Rob Roy
Greek Doughboy
Greek Flam-boy
Greek Playboy
Fuck her joy
I can see him down there in the gutter he’s
Dying, labored breath, it’s no longer his, listen
To me, your mom called she says she still loves you
Daddy texted, he is disappointed but he
Hopes that you’ll find peace where you are going, your
Sisters, nah don’t ask it’s better not to, your
Guardian angel left a message saying, she will
Be here quite soon, maybe not soon enough
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2. |
Apple Red
04:37
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Her voice wakes me up, it’s warm and kind
Outshining the radiant spring sun
She shines
Morning dew evaporates, my eyes
Pitch black silhouette, she extends her hand
My world’s upside down, she will rectify that now
Cabin hidden deep within these woods
Her witch-like potions bring me back to life
Deep sleep
Early evening, crackling fireplace, the sound of
Pre-historic and distorted strings
There she sits, deep blue eyes, black hair
A maelstrom of the night
Where am I, why am I soaked in blood and sick?
Did I cheat death, why am I, who is this girl?
Did I cheat death, why are you here?
The orchestra, minor to major as soon as
Our eyes meet, her pale
Skin illuminates everything like fluorescent light
Her cheeks, apple red, lips are painted, lids and lashes too
An impossible dream may come true
I hope she feels it too
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3. |
Blue Jay
04:58
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Tell me who you are
I think I almost died
Tell me what you like
So far, I really like you
Tell me what you really hate
I hate her
Tell me what you want
For this night to never end
Tell me what you think
Life holds too much pain
Tell me what I am to you?
Savior, oh so sweet
This is what I want
To get to know you even better
This is what I think
Life doesn’t have to be all pain
This is what you are to me
Poor soul, beautiful
You don’t say?
You don’t say?
My heart is a blue jay
You don’t say?
You don’t say?
My mind went astray
You don’t say?
Oh, dismay!
I feel as if it was another life
Last time I felt I had significant worth
You realize you’ve just performed a miracle?
You managed to breathe life back into me
I feel something is moving
Perhaps it is my heart?
I feel something is changing
Perhaps it is my
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4. |
Green Lenses
03:58
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It’s your turn to speak, I will listen
Details of your life
Dragged out into the light of the flames
All you wish is to just be naked
Desperate and warm
Words are pouring right into my ears
I just want to know all about you
I just want to feel naked with you
We know we can trust
Green lenses zoom in and out your wondrous pale moonscape
Lungs move your chest moves your breasts
You look so goth
Adorned
Magical
Here with me
Lungs move your chest moves your breasts
You look so goth
Adorned
Magical
Here with me
Two people, one day, one room, undressed
I will devour everything you tell me
Strangers, but not really, let’s whirl
And celebrate how well we managed to cheat death.
Protection from the wild horde.
It’s more than lust.
You have my word now.
Protection, you will have.
This is my promise to you.
Protection from the wild horde.
It’s more than love.
It’s more than lust.
You have my word now.
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5. |
Twenty-Four
04:57
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The moisture and cold have crept back into our haven
Too good to be true
Look at her, sadness, repulsion
It’s a classic trick of mine
I’ve lost her and this is the end
There are no exceptions
To think good persists is a quite a leap
She’s all silent now
She can’t even look at my hideousness
A miserable failure
A rapidly growing pile of loss
Am I still dying, this damn ditch
Drowning in a pool of sick and blood
I am still dying, a damn shame
Limbo, my trusty cage
Shhhhh
Thank you for all the magic, help and trust
Let me be on my way
Savior
Just stop
I’m done
I’ll show myself the door
You don’t deserve the trouble
Save me
Thank you for all the magic, help and trust
Let me be on my way
Save me
Just stop
I’m done
I’ll show myself the door
Why won’t you let go of me?
Hey oh hey oh, twenty-four
Hey oh hey oh, punishment, oh
Hey oh hey oh, twenty-four
Hey oh
This is punishment for all my deeds
Let’s see what death has in store for me
Had me fooled
I’ll give him that
Last destination
Your hand is so warm
Your green gaze screams at me
wants me to stay
I am still alive
We have to pounce all while we still can
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6. |
Off Goes the Roof
04:05
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We whirl towards each other and lips meet
Tongue against tongue, skin against skin
We pounce at lightning speed, become one
Open to me, I am inside you
Crazy starved looks, won’t shy away
We are in safe but eager hands, oh
You are my canvas, we paint
Milky white and red, the game will go on
Levitating two feet above ground
We have done everything we could
Tension reaches climactic levels, oh
We’ve no choice but to let it go
As we come
Lightning strikes
Off goes the roof
The trees all bow down to shield us
A hail storm of acorns
Disaster
Hurricane of soundwaves
Demolishing
The sun and the moon
Collision course
A gigantic flash of light
Silence now
They melt and explode
a nebula
Behold all the colors
Nails break skin, red lines
Quivering flesh, fumbling hands
Juice from the cracks, floor made of lust
Primal fanfare, in honor of us
Apple branch, wants to join in on the act now
Now we gaze at the wondrous mercilessness of infinity
Nature’s fanfare ended with illumination
The wondrous mercilessness of infinity
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ICU
03:07
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A cabin with no roof is no good
We moved on
Sleepy town is in reverse
Oh, the beach is our home now
Squatting, watching the sea gulls
Sun goes up, battle cries
Memories of struggles past, we have won
Raging on
Emotional ICU
Vital signs
Every day you win my heart, more and more
This must be forever, I can feel it changing
Every I win your heart, more and more
This must be forever, you can feel it changing
Changing our hearts
Give me that look, I will give you a hug
Please, tell me a story
Just tell me a joke, and I will die laughing
Let’s play for no one, let’s kiss while we sing
Hit your instrument, I’ll scream out an ode
To us and no one else
Let’s kiss while we sing, let’s laugh while we play
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8. |
The Yarn that Binds Us
03:49
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Blue turns to red
Hours or days?
The grey wooly yarn that binds us
Suffocate
Unrecognizably awful, it warps time
Let me free you
Beads of cold sweat
I lift you up, you’re lifeless
Critical mass
Stars in a cage
Small beads of sadness
Tangled up now
Love, oh how did we end up here?
This is madness, pure madness
Will we ever be alright?
What is that sound?
It’s the ocean boiling
What is that light?
It’s the redness of the fire sky
That smell?
Acid rain
It dissolved all traces
We are unhurt
Laughing
Naked
Free to live or die
On our own terms
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9. |
The Tribe
04:35
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We can
See-see it
All from up here
The lakes, spires and the stars
A bohemian wet dream
wet dream
So this is the tribe we both have been looking for
All open arms, exciting, gloomy, reborn
Sing our praise
Inside my enemy we’re born
Please take a bow
But beneath it the monster lies in wait
We must distract it
We must fool it
We appease it
Impress it with our big bottle collection
Flee
The bastard loves all of our act
Take off all your rags, love
I will do the same
He wants me in you
Let it go, mount me and ride
This he will remember
Put your hands around my neck and choke me
There is no way to contain this
We both know what this is leading to
Hold on
It will be born out of these flames
Lost on stage
We’re both lost in the streets
Hold on
Please brace yourself now
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10. |
To the Lost
05:29
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Red light, a darkroom
It summoned us here, a temple
Bathtubs on goats’ hooves
They carry boiling black liquid
Torches stink up the place
With flickering oily blue flames
Deep rumbling bass notes
Make the temple twist and scream
Surrounded by them
Too many to count
All naked
No words, soft moaning
Pure survival, no conscience
No inhibitions
Just masturbation
And pure lust
Dead eyes
Red darkness
Rejection of pain
We feel them
We’re here for the same reasons
The lost ones could possibly flee tonight
Monster’s awake
We will dissolve
can you hear it?
On and on
forever
Forever
We’re here for the same reasons
No “we” exists, clinically dead inside
I’m torn apart, we’ll meet again
Can you feel it?
On and on
Forever
Forever
Love, where are you?
All just a blur
Body parts
Bass gets louder
Tubs explode
Black goo all over
Penetrate, easy as pie
Blinded
I feel them inside
Big and small
Good thing we answered
There you are
I see you now
Innocent being
You’re on your knees
Scraped, cut and bruised
Black and red blend with your tears
Surrounded
Hard throbbing cocks
You suppress a heartbreaking scream
Both our screams
Blend and shape into harmony
Regret and despair
They try to bite
Scratch
Murder me
I lift you up from the muck
You are light as a feather
Oh, I run into the day
Now we sleep
Now we will dream
Bright sunshine
Something must change
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11. |
T'was a Trap
04:33
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Fact
We left the monster
In the temple
Yeah
It isn’t moving
Fill the tub with warmth and
Don’t forget the candles
Time for healing
Your mind on a canvas
I will play the perfect chord
They’re waiting
Fire and melodies
Trains of thought and your perceived sensations
Oh the horror
It was a trap
They have found us
Dragged us back
Hunger
Fondling
The red darkness reigns
The fragility of it all
They’re parasites
You’re crazy
We’re crazy
We believed them
We trusted them
No
No more
No more
Oh no more
I think we’ve overstayed our welcome
Far too complicated
Try to find a cause
I dare you
It lives inside us still
It’s shuffling and they can sense it
This really isn’t where we belong love
The grey and wooly yarn,
It’s trying hard to suffocate us
Don’t give in to it
Do not move a damn inch
Remember we are mad
It is the opposite of dying
The energy will carry us all across
It’s waiting for us there
We hear it calling let us go now
We fall and fail and die on our own terms
Will you receive?
Let us feel at home
Finally?
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Hot Breeze
04:36
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Feels like a dream
VB
Flurry
Colors
Grand Canal
Palm trees
Don’t ask
Hot breeze
Better than movies
Carroll
Strolling
Excitement
Growing
Child’s play
Linnie Park
Boardwalk
Sun beach
We gawk
Hold hands
Muscle men
Turn on the TV
Location, location, location
Escape the pain
Move on
Salty
Breathe in
Sexy
Long for the future
Scorching
On our knees in the desert
We’ve seen our God
We know it to be true
Out of our minds we kneel before him
Obligation to share this gift with you all
Scorching
On our knees in the desert
We’ve seen our God
We know it to be true now
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We’re on stage
Paradise
we make everything shine
We’re making it happen
The laws of physics we are bending
And isn’t it marvelous?
Trembling hands from exhaustion
The blackness around your eyes
Your skin is so ghostly
We are vampires
This our thing
But I feel you less and less
We wither away
More like machines than lovers
What is that crazy tongue you speak?
A look of confusion and contempt
You ask me to slow down
We no longer communicate
So we no longer stand a chance
Wasn’t just the temple
No
A culmination of the shit that went before
Closet full of skellingtons
Our weaknesses on display
Why can’t anything ever just feel good?
There must be something we have missed
Tell me
Why did you save my life back there?
Monstrous
We are
Let it turn to shit
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14. |
Angelus Rosedale
04:18
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We’re all gathered here today
To let our inner cemetery dog run amok
Rampant fornication on head stones
Dripping orgies
Old mausoleum
The bell sets a steady beat
Ultimate debauchery
There is not a single hole
Unoccupied here tonight
Hold my hand
oh they’re busy
Both of them are stroking
It all hurts
But we go on
Keep going until we dissolve
Nature is closing in
The night, is so long
The red darkness grabs hold
Won’t let go
Let us scream ensemble
Our night will come to an abrupt end
Filthy beasts burnt away by the sun
They left traces
Come morning we will both lay there naked
Pathetically eyes closed in shame
Hold me
Save us
We have lost the plot
No calling this time
This is just lust
Is there no more to this life
But a string of monstrous events
This magical place
Smoke and mirrors
Rotten beneath
I feel torn apart from you, love
We no longer answer
When it tries to call us
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15. |
Belly Up
04:36
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So what happened, back there
I don’t know who we are supposed to be
Or where it ends
This pact is broken
Maybe it was never sealed
This path of night
Can’t go on
Not forever
There is no prize
No reward
It’s all made up
Happiness is the myth that we chase
Don’t believe me?
You’re a damn fool and a liar
I’m not the one
You’re not the two
we’re free
This pact is broken
Maybe it was never sealed
This path of night, can’t go on
not forever
The animal hit its head
Went belly up
This will all end in tears
All upside down
This instinct morphed into death drive
How are we meant to live?
Awaiting us
Disasters
And pure oceans of pain and disappointment
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16. |
Wolfsburg
04:37
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I can’t fight you anymore
I have to lay down and sleep
Away from you.
Suddenly I’m on an old bus
Driver’s smiling at me
But speaks in tongues
At the bath house
Girls are flocking all around me
They want my gaze and lust
They flock, I grow
The wetness, oh
They touch, I grow
I touch
A, J and I
party time, boy
Baby Jessamine in his chopping cart
The old hag shouts
I pulverize
I know what it means
I know what you’re trying to show to me
Blame me
Loneliness is victorious
TM, I was too cautious
RH, I was way too nice
Dear SC, I was such a scaredy-cat
LK, I was too in love
Dear MO, I was way too humble
NJ, it was too soon
I dream, they come
They show and tell
Ghosts have a point
I am alone
By myself, always
I am alone
By myself, always
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They came to see you too?
Visitors for you
Now it’s all so clear, isn’t it?
I know what you will say
Instead of saving me
You should just have kept walking
We’re hopeless and we’re flawed
Oh, and dangerous
Ghosts from the past
clear visions
The monster pulled a trick
Delusions far too strong
Did they try to touch you too?
They saw us in our dreams
Ghosts of yesteryear
wise and numerous, oh dear
No one has learned from this
Our mistakes will be all they remember us for
We came, we saw
We failed miserably
We kept clinging to
All the dreams
The nightmare took away the reigns
We have to breathe
Just a wee bit more
Your heart must beat
Are You still afraid of the darkness
Don’t look down
Your beauty reminds me of all I have lost
Your damned love reminds me of all my hideousness
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18. |
The Pier
05:20
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Life’s about to end
Is it really worth fighting for?
With it pain will cease, let go
Let us head on in
Come, grab my hand
Oh, I loved you so
A lifetime would have been so much better
I’ll miss your scent
And your hair
And your crazy eyes
I’ll miss your hands
And your laugh
And your stubbornness
We know we must
And we will
And we’ll do it right
Just know I’ll always keep you here inside
We’ll let the drive take over
One last time
Lead us to the right place
Relax your body and let it lead you on
Wounded, scarred and scared
Just wait
The rest will come
Hand in hand
sky scrapers
This city is a tomb
Robbery
Beating and clawing
Stabbing us
We’re here, the beach
The pier is straight ahead of us
We made it, love
The moon is smiling right down on us
Let’s go to bed
But first
Just like in that old dream
Embrace
In the, pale light
We’ll never get out alive
Lay down here with me
The sun is about to rise
Come make love to me
The sun is about to rise
Come rest here with me
The sun is about to rise
Close your eyes my love
The sun is about to rise
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Experimental sound artist based in Hamburg, Germany
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