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Together

by I Divorced Life

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1.
I lose myself on the floor Your face is blurred by hot juice I need to see your eyes We were the best, no longer are I taste them on your lips, on your tongue, such arousal What a shock, your necklace is running I found another source of pleasure, my dreams You did no longer want to – all these strange men, they could and they did Colleagues, students, friends of friends – you took them all Your peerless whorishness, it’s shock and delight All while I cheer and pray for escalation I found another source of pleasure, no dream I use codeine, I drink I smoke, I get high, high as a kite A neon lit urban hell – please dish out the pain A fittingly red night on the town I say Please strike me down, oh, am I even worth it now? You found another source of pleasure, no dream The tweezers shred my skin I’m - out of my mind, drunk, high-odine A neon lit urban hell – let me find some pain I welcome all the random violence, please Please strike me down, oh, I am so confused now This is not what best friends put each other through, you know Fathers - Lock up your daughters Boyfriends - Lock up your girlfriends Mothers – Tie up your precious Greek Fuck Boy Greek Sex Toy Greek Gameboy Greek McCoy Greek Bellboy Greek Joy toy Greek Cowboy Greek Rob Roy Greek Doughboy Greek Flam-boy Greek Playboy Fuck her joy I can see him down there in the gutter he’s Dying, labored breath, it’s no longer his, listen To me, your mom called she says she still loves you Daddy texted, he is disappointed but he Hopes that you’ll find peace where you are going, your Sisters, nah don’t ask it’s better not to, your Guardian angel left a message saying, she will Be here quite soon, maybe not soon enough
2.
Apple Red 04:37
Her voice wakes me up, it’s warm and kind Outshining the radiant spring sun She shines Morning dew evaporates, my eyes Pitch black silhouette, she extends her hand My world’s upside down, she will rectify that now Cabin hidden deep within these woods Her witch-like potions bring me back to life Deep sleep Early evening, crackling fireplace, the sound of Pre-historic and distorted strings There she sits, deep blue eyes, black hair A maelstrom of the night Where am I, why am I soaked in blood and sick? Did I cheat death, why am I, who is this girl? Did I cheat death, why are you here? The orchestra, minor to major as soon as Our eyes meet, her pale Skin illuminates everything like fluorescent light Her cheeks, apple red, lips are painted, lids and lashes too An impossible dream may come true I hope she feels it too
3.
Blue Jay 04:58
Tell me who you are I think I almost died Tell me what you like So far, I really like you Tell me what you really hate I hate her Tell me what you want For this night to never end Tell me what you think Life holds too much pain Tell me what I am to you? Savior, oh so sweet This is what I want To get to know you even better This is what I think Life doesn’t have to be all pain This is what you are to me Poor soul, beautiful You don’t say? You don’t say? My heart is a blue jay You don’t say? You don’t say? My mind went astray You don’t say? Oh, dismay! I feel as if it was another life Last time I felt I had significant worth You realize you’ve just performed a miracle? You managed to breathe life back into me I feel something is moving Perhaps it is my heart? I feel something is changing Perhaps it is my
4.
Green Lenses 03:58
It’s your turn to speak, I will listen Details of your life Dragged out into the light of the flames All you wish is to just be naked Desperate and warm Words are pouring right into my ears I just want to know all about you I just want to feel naked with you We know we can trust Green lenses zoom in and out your wondrous pale moonscape Lungs move your chest moves your breasts You look so goth Adorned Magical Here with me Lungs move your chest moves your breasts You look so goth Adorned Magical Here with me Two people, one day, one room, undressed I will devour everything you tell me Strangers, but not really, let’s whirl And celebrate how well we managed to cheat death. Protection from the wild horde. It’s more than lust. You have my word now. Protection, you will have. This is my promise to you. Protection from the wild horde. It’s more than love. It’s more than lust. You have my word now.
5.
Twenty-Four 04:57
The moisture and cold have crept back into our haven Too good to be true Look at her, sadness, repulsion It’s a classic trick of mine I’ve lost her and this is the end There are no exceptions To think good persists is a quite a leap She’s all silent now She can’t even look at my hideousness A miserable failure A rapidly growing pile of loss Am I still dying, this damn ditch Drowning in a pool of sick and blood I am still dying, a damn shame Limbo, my trusty cage Shhhhh Thank you for all the magic, help and trust Let me be on my way Savior Just stop I’m done I’ll show myself the door You don’t deserve the trouble Save me Thank you for all the magic, help and trust Let me be on my way Save me Just stop I’m done I’ll show myself the door Why won’t you let go of me? Hey oh hey oh, twenty-four Hey oh hey oh, punishment, oh Hey oh hey oh, twenty-four Hey oh This is punishment for all my deeds Let’s see what death has in store for me Had me fooled I’ll give him that Last destination Your hand is so warm Your green gaze screams at me wants me to stay I am still alive We have to pounce all while we still can
6.
We whirl towards each other and lips meet Tongue against tongue, skin against skin We pounce at lightning speed, become one Open to me, I am inside you Crazy starved looks, won’t shy away We are in safe but eager hands, oh You are my canvas, we paint Milky white and red, the game will go on Levitating two feet above ground We have done everything we could Tension reaches climactic levels, oh We’ve no choice but to let it go As we come Lightning strikes Off goes the roof The trees all bow down to shield us A hail storm of acorns Disaster Hurricane of soundwaves Demolishing The sun and the moon Collision course A gigantic flash of light Silence now They melt and explode a nebula Behold all the colors Nails break skin, red lines Quivering flesh, fumbling hands Juice from the cracks, floor made of lust Primal fanfare, in honor of us Apple branch, wants to join in on the act now Now we gaze at the wondrous mercilessness of infinity Nature’s fanfare ended with illumination The wondrous mercilessness of infinity
7.
ICU 03:07
A cabin with no roof is no good We moved on Sleepy town is in reverse Oh, the beach is our home now Squatting, watching the sea gulls Sun goes up, battle cries Memories of struggles past, we have won Raging on Emotional ICU Vital signs Every day you win my heart, more and more This must be forever, I can feel it changing Every I win your heart, more and more This must be forever, you can feel it changing Changing our hearts Give me that look, I will give you a hug Please, tell me a story Just tell me a joke, and I will die laughing Let’s play for no one, let’s kiss while we sing Hit your instrument, I’ll scream out an ode To us and no one else Let’s kiss while we sing, let’s laugh while we play
8.
Blue turns to red Hours or days? The grey wooly yarn that binds us Suffocate Unrecognizably awful, it warps time Let me free you Beads of cold sweat I lift you up, you’re lifeless Critical mass Stars in a cage Small beads of sadness Tangled up now Love, oh how did we end up here? This is madness, pure madness Will we ever be alright? What is that sound? It’s the ocean boiling What is that light? It’s the redness of the fire sky That smell? Acid rain It dissolved all traces We are unhurt Laughing Naked Free to live or die On our own terms
9.
The Tribe 04:35
We can See-see it All from up here The lakes, spires and the stars A bohemian wet dream wet dream So this is the tribe we both have been looking for All open arms, exciting, gloomy, reborn Sing our praise Inside my enemy we’re born Please take a bow But beneath it the monster lies in wait We must distract it We must fool it We appease it Impress it with our big bottle collection Flee The bastard loves all of our act Take off all your rags, love I will do the same He wants me in you Let it go, mount me and ride This he will remember Put your hands around my neck and choke me There is no way to contain this We both know what this is leading to Hold on It will be born out of these flames Lost on stage We’re both lost in the streets Hold on Please brace yourself now
10.
To the Lost 05:29
Red light, a darkroom It summoned us here, a temple Bathtubs on goats’ hooves They carry boiling black liquid Torches stink up the place With flickering oily blue flames Deep rumbling bass notes Make the temple twist and scream Surrounded by them Too many to count All naked No words, soft moaning Pure survival, no conscience No inhibitions Just masturbation And pure lust Dead eyes Red darkness Rejection of pain We feel them We’re here for the same reasons The lost ones could possibly flee tonight Monster’s awake We will dissolve can you hear it? On and on forever Forever We’re here for the same reasons No “we” exists, clinically dead inside I’m torn apart, we’ll meet again Can you feel it? On and on Forever Forever Love, where are you? All just a blur Body parts Bass gets louder Tubs explode Black goo all over Penetrate, easy as pie Blinded I feel them inside Big and small Good thing we answered There you are I see you now Innocent being You’re on your knees Scraped, cut and bruised Black and red blend with your tears Surrounded Hard throbbing cocks You suppress a heartbreaking scream Both our screams Blend and shape into harmony Regret and despair They try to bite Scratch Murder me I lift you up from the muck You are light as a feather Oh, I run into the day Now we sleep Now we will dream Bright sunshine Something must change
11.
T'was a Trap 04:33
Fact We left the monster In the temple Yeah It isn’t moving Fill the tub with warmth and Don’t forget the candles Time for healing Your mind on a canvas I will play the perfect chord They’re waiting Fire and melodies Trains of thought and your perceived sensations Oh the horror It was a trap They have found us Dragged us back Hunger Fondling The red darkness reigns The fragility of it all They’re parasites You’re crazy We’re crazy We believed them We trusted them No No more No more Oh no more I think we’ve overstayed our welcome Far too complicated Try to find a cause I dare you It lives inside us still It’s shuffling and they can sense it This really isn’t where we belong love The grey and wooly yarn, It’s trying hard to suffocate us Don’t give in to it Do not move a damn inch Remember we are mad It is the opposite of dying The energy will carry us all across It’s waiting for us there We hear it calling let us go now We fall and fail and die on our own terms Will you receive? Let us feel at home Finally?
12.
Hot Breeze 04:36
Feels like a dream VB Flurry Colors Grand Canal Palm trees Don’t ask Hot breeze Better than movies Carroll Strolling Excitement Growing Child’s play Linnie Park Boardwalk Sun beach We gawk Hold hands Muscle men Turn on the TV Location, location, location Escape the pain Move on Salty Breathe in Sexy Long for the future Scorching On our knees in the desert We’ve seen our God We know it to be true Out of our minds we kneel before him Obligation to share this gift with you all Scorching On our knees in the desert We’ve seen our God We know it to be true now
13.
We’re on stage Paradise we make everything shine We’re making it happen The laws of physics we are bending And isn’t it marvelous? Trembling hands from exhaustion The blackness around your eyes Your skin is so ghostly We are vampires This our thing But I feel you less and less We wither away More like machines than lovers What is that crazy tongue you speak? A look of confusion and contempt You ask me to slow down We no longer communicate So we no longer stand a chance Wasn’t just the temple No A culmination of the shit that went before Closet full of skellingtons Our weaknesses on display Why can’t anything ever just feel good? There must be something we have missed Tell me Why did you save my life back there? Monstrous We are Let it turn to shit
14.
We’re all gathered here today To let our inner cemetery dog run amok Rampant fornication on head stones Dripping orgies Old mausoleum The bell sets a steady beat Ultimate debauchery There is not a single hole Unoccupied here tonight Hold my hand oh they’re busy Both of them are stroking It all hurts But we go on Keep going until we dissolve Nature is closing in The night, is so long The red darkness grabs hold Won’t let go Let us scream ensemble Our night will come to an abrupt end Filthy beasts burnt away by the sun They left traces Come morning we will both lay there naked Pathetically eyes closed in shame Hold me Save us We have lost the plot No calling this time This is just lust Is there no more to this life But a string of monstrous events This magical place Smoke and mirrors Rotten beneath I feel torn apart from you, love We no longer answer When it tries to call us
15.
Belly Up 04:36
So what happened, back there I don’t know who we are supposed to be Or where it ends This pact is broken Maybe it was never sealed This path of night Can’t go on Not forever There is no prize No reward It’s all made up Happiness is the myth that we chase Don’t believe me? You’re a damn fool and a liar I’m not the one You’re not the two we’re free This pact is broken Maybe it was never sealed This path of night, can’t go on not forever The animal hit its head Went belly up This will all end in tears All upside down This instinct morphed into death drive How are we meant to live? Awaiting us Disasters And pure oceans of pain and disappointment
16.
Wolfsburg 04:37
I can’t fight you anymore I have to lay down and sleep Away from you. Suddenly I’m on an old bus Driver’s smiling at me But speaks in tongues At the bath house Girls are flocking all around me They want my gaze and lust They flock, I grow The wetness, oh They touch, I grow I touch A, J and I party time, boy Baby Jessamine in his chopping cart The old hag shouts I pulverize I know what it means I know what you’re trying to show to me Blame me Loneliness is victorious TM, I was too cautious RH, I was way too nice Dear SC, I was such a scaredy-cat LK, I was too in love Dear MO, I was way too humble NJ, it was too soon I dream, they come They show and tell Ghosts have a point I am alone By myself, always I am alone By myself, always
17.
They came to see you too? Visitors for you Now it’s all so clear, isn’t it? I know what you will say Instead of saving me You should just have kept walking We’re hopeless and we’re flawed Oh, and dangerous Ghosts from the past clear visions The monster pulled a trick Delusions far too strong Did they try to touch you too? They saw us in our dreams Ghosts of yesteryear wise and numerous, oh dear No one has learned from this Our mistakes will be all they remember us for We came, we saw We failed miserably We kept clinging to All the dreams The nightmare took away the reigns We have to breathe Just a wee bit more Your heart must beat Are You still afraid of the darkness Don’t look down Your beauty reminds me of all I have lost Your damned love reminds me of all my hideousness
18.
The Pier 05:20
Life’s about to end Is it really worth fighting for? With it pain will cease, let go Let us head on in Come, grab my hand Oh, I loved you so A lifetime would have been so much better I’ll miss your scent And your hair And your crazy eyes I’ll miss your hands And your laugh And your stubbornness We know we must And we will And we’ll do it right Just know I’ll always keep you here inside We’ll let the drive take over One last time Lead us to the right place Relax your body and let it lead you on Wounded, scarred and scared Just wait The rest will come Hand in hand sky scrapers This city is a tomb Robbery Beating and clawing Stabbing us We’re here, the beach The pier is straight ahead of us We made it, love The moon is smiling right down on us Let’s go to bed But first Just like in that old dream Embrace In the, pale light We’ll never get out alive Lay down here with me The sun is about to rise Come make love to me The sun is about to rise Come rest here with me The sun is about to rise Close your eyes my love The sun is about to rise

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A tale of a journey for two.

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released April 10, 2018

Written, recorded and produced by I Divorced Life

Silas Andersen: vocals, synth, guitar, programming, noise electronics
Hanawa: vocals
Anders Matthiesen: live drums and percussion

A million gazillion extra special thanks to both Hanawa and Anders; this album only exists because you are so awesome!

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