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The Shepherd
06:15
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There is a reason why I named you ”savior”
I barely made it out alive, skin of my teeth
You stood there bathed in light, an angel with a
cup of coffee, oh, you fucked me back to life, I’ll take it
Wasting my time with you makes me want to feel sick
Can’t we just go back to when you were cute
and not a cold hearted, self-centered bitch?
Being in love is the same thing as losing your mind
When the storm broke, I realized
I was never close to making it out
A man who drowns in darkness is no longer hot
You blame me, turn down the heat
You lack humanity, you used to be my
One and all and my best friend, your hypocrisy stings now
No one is as smart or beautiful as you are, right?
People are just dumb sheep, you’re the shepherd leading us on
You chose to do the very worst thing you could have done to me
Why don’t you just grow a pair of balls,
can’t you see who you fucking look like?
That imbecile you always loved to berate and whine about
It must be in your genes, the promiscuity can’t be your fault
I guess nine years isn’t all that long, it’s okay to fuck me over
The apple didn’t fall very far, say, can it get any colder?
If diamonds and perfume is not enough I really don’t know
If love and trust is not enough
If only we would heed your words, don’t you know it all?
If only we could be like you, don’t you know it all?
If only we could be as smart and beautiful as you?
If only we could hit the notes, don’t you hit ‘em all?
Please heal us, please do your magic, please show us what it is you do
Please save me, please work your magic, please tell me how much longer?
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No-Jive
02:43
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From this moment forth I’ll take what I want
I’ll lie, cheat and steal, you’ll be trash
They are separable, biology lies
Oh, I can’t be arsed, no more compromise
Pet your feelings, let’s say “hi”
I can’t deal with any of your moods
Never will I subject myself to your evil
No more feeling like a pig just because I want you
Love leads us astray to death
So when I come, remember to breathe, please
I won’t cut you any slack, so please, please breathe
Don’t share
Keep your feelings there, inside
Don’t love
Keep it under wraps, clean up
I will be gone
Don’t fret
even though it hurts, inside
Don’t come
I don’t think it’s love
Lie down, I will be gone
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Hey Bird
05:23
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I’ll be right there, where, when and how, dear?
How much, dear? How much, dear?
Is there something I can do, dear? Just tell me, please tell me
You never got that apology, now look here, here you go:
I’m so sorry I was late, dear. I came too, I came too soon
I’m sorry I didn’t deserve you, you’re too fine for me
I am a wreck and I botched my part, forgive me, for I am weak
I am so sorry I am the way that I am
This wasn’t what you signed up… wasn’t what you signed up for
I’m a doormat, and you’re a nazi, no compassion for anyone else
Were you too stupid or too proud?
I did the suffering, you did the right thing, closed your eyes and ears
Like an ostrich, you buried your head in the sand
You never know when I’d reach the end of my rope
I never knew you, we are done
You know I am scared, you know I am scarred and scared
I’m sure you do, love, we are done
(Paint my face in blood, love)
I’m way too boring, I’m way too empty and sad
Now that’s not sexy, is it, love?
(Paint my face in blood, love)
Why are you not here?
I lay in bed, I’m dying… or at least crying - I need you
(Paint me with your blood, love)
January fifth is a day of shame
I regret taking your gift, it was poisonous
I’m sorry I kept on wanting you
I should have realized that you needed a stranger’s cock
A third of my life wasted, bye!
Please just go
I’ll be right there, where, when and how, dear?
How much, dear? How much, dear?
Is there something I can do, dear? Just tell me, please tell me
I am a wreck and I botched my part, forgive me, for I am weak
I am so sorry you are the way that you are
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A Tear In Time
07:06
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He’d always grind my gears
“Remember what we had?”
Nostalgia is useless now
Shut your mouth
Just look at what we have
The art, love and the light
No boundaries, no limits here, anything goes
On your death bed, you will look up and ask God
“Was I good??”
Awaiting answer
Just before your plane goes nose first into the mountain
Pray!
Split into atoms
I’ve let myself sink deep
Into nostalgia
This is the thing I promised to never do
I’d laugh but it’s a joke
A tear in time and space
Suddenly I am in the past - perfect past
You practice your passion, share with me, I’ll make you my king
Small scale provincal summer of love, we were flying!
Why does the record skip?
What is it I cannot get?
These people do not even recognize me
They are not frozen in time
It’s just a pale shadow!
Nothing but a shadow!
Have you tasted everything?
Beautiful people are all around us
Let us bathe
Let us make love in the rain
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Puppy Love (ft. Hanawa)
05:55
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Was it secret puppy love or just perhaps a manic obsession
I’ve no idea, who are you?
I know what I would like for you to be
I’ll fill in all the blanks
I will just make something up
I know exactly who I need
I will just make up some tall fantasy tale
Once it is set in stone, I will begin the hunt for you
Once it is canonized, the hunt will definitely have begun
One mind, one soul, one heart
I would never make this up
You do know that, don’t you friend?
I’m not a threat, you know I mean you no harm
Don’t be afraid, our dreams will go hand in hand
The search is over, we’re ready to unite
Don’t be afraid
Let us rest and stay warm now, friend
Your head is on fire
Your fire is on fire
My world is ablaze
Your cat is on fire
Your fire is smiling
Your fire is ablaze now!
Sorry dear, did you need more time to contemplate?
Sorry dear, did you need more time to judge me?
Sorry dear, did you need more time to seduce me?
Sorry dear, did you need more time to ignore me?
I let you into my home
Ghost, you’re gone, into thin air
Oh, you hide in the black void
Is this real or just a dream?
Do you know what we have lost?
Do you know what you have done?
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Goddess (ft. Hanawa)
04:12
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Wot n Tarnation!
08:10
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So you chose to let him fuck you
Terrified
My boy, do you want to shower?
I am scared
Cum is filthy, skin is on fire
You’ll be clean
Let us listen to the voice of daddy now:
“My daughter’s quite a dirty, nasty whore indeed”
A dirty shower won’t make your sins vanish
Did you feel dirty when he pulled out of you, my girl?
Did your conscience burst right into flames? No?
My girl is quite the dirty, nasty whore indeed
Be my lover
I wish you would just be his lover
I’m glad you are gone now
To him you’re flesh
To me you’re a demon
A dirty shower won’t make your sins vanish
Be his lover
Oh, our lovers make us feel needed
Did you know I already caught you
Was that why you were crying?
Save my lover
You’re his lover
Make me feel stronger
You were crawling around down on the floor
And your face was flushed
No matter what I wish you good luck and god speed
It can’t be easy being such a nasty, little brat
I hope that it was worth it
That pathetic little cock between your legs
I hope that you enjoy being alone
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Fimbul
05:45
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I walked into the light, no more darkness, oh it’s been so long
Believe me it was bright, hurt my eyes but it was a sweet pain
A pain that filled me with hope, and joy and thirst
Finally hunger returned, I craved you all
I was engulfed in the warmth, a love for life
Suddenly it all made sense, to fight, to live
It was a rush, of energy unbound, unsurpassed
It pushed me out towards the crowd of my nightmares
Like a larva going through a transformative
Fight to become a beautiful butterfly
I flew into the gold
With my wings bathing in the hot sunshine
Believe me it was bright
Hurt my eyes but it was a sweet pain
A pain that filled me with hope
And joy and thirst
Finally hunger returned
I craved you all
I was engulfed in the warmth
A love for life
Suddenly it all made sense
To fight, to live
Warmth was met with cold, love was greeted by fear
People living this life and I we’re divorced for good
What I want is a bit of proof
That you’re not all just dead and cold hearted
I’m up when you’re down
Nothing will ever fit, no
Nothing will ever make sense to me
Is there really anything out there, something genuine?
Something beautiful and real or are you all just empty shells?
I’m too tired to keep looking
It hurts too much, it hurts too much
Everything I have fought for has turned out to be merely hot air
Reaching into the past will not bring me nothing, nothing but hurt
I’m so tired now
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Playmate
05:31
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I will not apologize for not staying in my place
This self-preservation is my right
There are things I will never change
Perhaps my mind and maybe my soul has gone to waste
In hate, spite and rot
Now's the time to get my mind straight and come to life
Instead of this halt
Just walk down to the old harbor
And see if it's possible
To maybe find some peace of mind
In all this demented nonsense
I'm going to get on the next boat right out of here
And leave town for good
Out to the sea, just where I want to be forevermore
Attempt to find my peace
Perhaps my mind and maybe my soul will persevere
Through hate, spite and rot
Now’s the time to leave you for dead and return to life
Leave you for dead
Think of this as you feel the cold creep up on you
Don’t forget
You are not the one
I am always…
Think of this as I disappear out into the open sea
I was never yours
I was never…
You will never catch me
You will never hold me again
Don’t think you can fool me
Don’t think you can trap me again
Let me go, pain
I will not play with you, you’re wicked
Please let me go, pain,
You’re never nice to me, I’ll leave now
Let me go and I promise
I will never bother you again
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10. |
If Only
04:03
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Your hands are trembling, your eyes are red
My heart is pounding, a jackhammer
Why do I taste blood?
I know what time it is, I’m not afraid
I trust you no matter what
You were always my best friend
Always and forever
Oh! Let it go
The cameras are rolling,
This is the final scene
None of your words surprise or shock me
It warms my heart how you look at me
You take my hand
Reveal all there is to reveal now
Our love has never been stronger than this
I let you go and you look back at me
With those deep hazel eyes
We let go
Bawl out our eyes
Sturdy shoulders
You must never ever be sad
No, you’re too strong for that
Easier than you would think
You smile, let go
Walk out the door
Into the sun
You turn around and see me
Oh god, your eyes, what have I lost?
Oh my god, those eyes, hazel!
Your beauty, love, empathy kills me
Right on the spot, strikes me dead
I collapse in the couch
With a peaceful smile
And a joyful tear running down my cheek
Salty joy, death
Thank you for seeing, seeing
Really seeing me
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Experimental sound artist based in Hamburg, Germany
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