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by I Divorced Life

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The deafening is silent This is about to get obnoxious He's screaming while vomiting fire Shapeshift into a blob of light No, he doesn't want you Save your toiletries for the tea time, meemaw Rope around your neck Candle in your hand Father Death Father, you are death It is unreasonable But I will still put all the blame on you Oh, you dirty animal Mind your own potatoes One under each armpit One under the last rib on the left Debased Defaced Debunked Degloved Disgrace Don't judge It's called ”presenting” Maybe he's just plum out of spendin'-money Or maybe she's just not worth it You were cast for this role But without consent Jerks make you pose awkwardly In front of cheap camcorders You pirouette around yourself Accepting dizziness You spread yourself wide open They sweat and laugh Smoke and drink Jerk And jerk And jerk
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Antaura? Still roaming the sea? All I got was your jealousy Generalist This one is for insects That one is for grain Seed crunch Nectar slurp Small local fruits Chisel deep Dipnetting even deeper Surface skimming Shallower Scythe it down hard HARD Probing, but carefully Filter feeding Aerial fishing The mother of all pursuits Scavenge like a silly robber Raptorial unmentionables Legs tattooed Real white upon mere white Your shower, but with a window by the sink At least one foot of water everywhere What's with all the commotion? She's just doing the rounds Making sure no one gets left out Cat Eyes and salted belly buttons Just tumbling-tumbling-tumbling on the floor there In front of eagerly gazing eyes Face hovering over small boy Night after night after pitch-black night No summoning took place Bulging cheeks Wrinkled red town Swallowing a bit at a time Bitterness and sweetness No air, never air Peeking at the gift One night then three for thee You left, yet somehow I stayed He courageously puts on his big-girl-pants March out into the world and give 'em hell He courageously puts on his big-girl-pants March out into the world and give 'em hell
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Nobody Asked 02:53
Your bedtime hallucination A place for maggot cultivation Life-weary relaxation In the midst of a foggy plantation Yet zero fear of separation And little means of transportation This life-ending altercation Truly uncalm articulation Less-than-soothing aggravation Untrue adoration Whole-hearted ornamentation Recalled and unnecessary modification That half-hearted adaptation Hidden within a silent proclamation Fully unwanted exploration Last-minute contemplation Ill-equipped combination Spit and blood-soaked relation Forced demonification Ruined and tasteless pollination Systemic envenomation Off-key instrumentation Her secret presentation My very last inhalation Such a hideous creation Yum a salacious nation Nobody asked for this decoration Prolonged localisation Soft, SOFT ramification Pretentious personification Restless manipulation Dishonest manifestation Undignified disfiguration Ragged and rad discombobulation This juvenile agitation More fiendish copulation Past heinous customization Thus ridiculous imitation Boundless limitation Thy misguided intimidation His regretful invitation The last stabilization
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Waltzing to the tune of nothing in particular An installation or an execution Your cheap white casket on the floor We hereby re-relieve you of all control Of all responsibilities Of all hope Of loss All fear All love Negated and undone into ash Occasional stirrings of her bosom Blackened Blacked Mounting into her head Blacky Black Criticized by her own mouth Blah Bee Buu Criticized by her own mouth Mock made of her own thoughts Each time you show me your hand An other piece of finger is missing An imagined escape Claws its way into becoming reality While I whisperingly And inaccurately Struggle to recite verses From the holy book of "Get Thy Act Together" Perpetually nervous from birth It is allowed To feel how a chest untightens How a heart unholds onto life Waltzing to the tune of nothing All is black Criticized by her own mouth BLAH BEE BUU
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Aphid 04:22
They carry you Two of them One in front and one behind Suspended and stiff You make the impression of being dead But only because you are Now sheet-covered Two of them lift you out of (y)our room Living room next Cold and curiously dank No longer candle-lit Approach the front steps Yellow-brownish stone Forward and one step down Carefully that you don't smash your knees Past the ghost of once aphid-infested pinkness A crackling of pepples A seldom used parking space Yet here is your ride Sirens won't be needed today There is nowhere you have to be Infatuation Restlessness On the slab Visit may be rain-checked You'd rather just off yourself than accept its indifference It's too cold to keep pretending it's not A fire broke out in the cow house The goodnight tale of "The Little Artery That Could"
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Say it out loud how you cannot be helped Assuredly this will force him to fail He says that this feeling is new Yet has painstakingly described it countless times before Countless times before She merely coughs in the face of extinction Nevertheless it resides in this old frump You look like a pile of withered hope A hill of badly healed wounds Trapped between the grinding of teeth Dolls and a fox made of straw Bruised and over-acting But at least the moaning stopped Dishonest smiles Untruthful tellings or sloppy lies Manipulated pity And unloving, sticky affection Dagnabbit He dun been got These games are asinine Infest Oppress Possessed! Whatever is lying there You hope it's from a dog One single goose leg But hidden behind a pant leg He must be chewed upon Until there is nothing left
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Waggy Hand 02:36
When you think about it So soul-crushingly bleak Mind-numbingly wrong It will be a cold day in hell Before you admit your mistakes You are merely a spectator Disgusting energy Reprehensability Spill out of a gash agape Onto a floor of wood Ruining fabulous Italian leather Get zapped, loser You're rendered a witness To your own undoing A scarf and a lap Insufficiancy and prematurity Flailing Over-excitement and yearning An aging body Giving its all, its last On the dew-covered January grass What a man you are A mighty fine one The manliest of men Applicable Great strategy, Mr. Smelly Breath Appalling Just disgust and scare us into submission
8.
Goosebumps the size of actual geese Pearls of sweat amassed A lake of nervousness Mouth and tongue Tingling Mice and tongs Mingling Your breath longs to be less short Obstruction Point Nemo Pale yellow butterfly A pit of dispair You hate it Because their pictures are less ugly Buckets of ice A shattering of everything Sea whips itself into a frenzy Stop stirring Home decay Abysmal Pervasive To just be speared! Abhorrent Your lower half is on fire Just one huge, terrifying misunderstanding Or perhaps a series Of smaller and moderately frightening miscommunications Like ripples in water A son becomes a frog
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It was October but not really I am not mad at you When I don't see you soon I do not want you to think I was ever mad at you It was your choice You flaming idiot I'm scared that you are listening to my thoughts I was only playing tough I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES I WILL EAT YOUR ANKLES

about

The bulging cheeks and shortness of breath.

This one took place in October but not really.

A logic made up of half-forgotten dreams and real white upon mere white.

The unheard lies and moldy undoing of one life, or several.

The no longer candle-lit recitation from the holy book of "Get Thy Act Together".

The goodnight tale of "The Little Artery That Could" and I paid for you in slush.

None of the cows made it out and a seldom-used parking space.

One single goose leg and he says that this feeling is new.

Get zapped and a son becomes a frog.

Mice tingling, tongs mingling.

Whatever is lying there, you hope it's from a dog.

credits

released June 30, 2022

Silas Andersen - vocals, analogue and digital synthesizers, analogue and digital drum machines, noise electronics, percussion, melodica, toy keyboards, samples

All songs written, performed, recorded and engineered by
I Divorced Life / Silas Mikkel Andersen

Cover art photography by the phenomenal Katrin Köhler
(Instagram: @wimpernradio)

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